5.12.2008

My First Mother's Day

I really don't have the words to describe how amazing my first Mother's Day was... in fact, it wasn't a day at all it was an entire weekend. Shane showered me with UNBELIEVABLE gifts - a fun 80's t-shirt, a James Avery bookmark with a picture frame charm on the end with a picture of Jorja AND a necklace with many small diamonds on it made into a circle. It is BEAUTIFUL!! My weekend started out Friday afternoon when Shane got off work. We got a babysitter - aka Nannie - and he took me out to the movies (one of my favorite things to do and I have only been one time since Jorja was born) and to dinner at Mi Cocina. And to top off the night we came home and he made me one of my favorite desserts (yellow cake with chocolate icing) and we watched another movie (yes, I LOVE movies) :) On Saturday we spent the day with my mom and family. We took family portraits for most of the day, went to church and out to dinner. It was definitely a fun-filled and wonderful day celebrating the woman that inspires me to be the best mom I can be. My mom is full of laughter, creativity, brilliance, love, compassion, strength, kindness, patience, selflessness, encouragement, beauty and godliness. If I can be half the mother she has been to me Jorja will be so blessed! I love you Momma! On Sunday, I was able to (for the first time since Jorja has been born) SLEEP IN!!! You heard me. I got to sleep past 7:00am! WOO HOO! My amazing hubby got up and fed Jorja and played with her and let me get some sleep. Of course, it wasn't near as long as I wanted it to be because my hearing has become super sonic hearing since Jorja came into my life and I could hear her saying "mama, mama" out in the living room and I couldn't resist getting up. But, the fact that Shane let me attempt to sleep in was priceless for me. We spent most of the day  Sunday celebrating Shane's mom (Sandi). She came over and her and Shane went and hung out just the two of them for a bit then we went and drove around town and then to dinner. Shane's mom and I have a great relationship so it was great to spend the day celebrating her as well. I learn so much from her about being a mom as well - she is giving, sacrificial, selfless, caring, kind, organized, loving, intuitive, and gentle. She is a wonderful mom as well and I love her very much! While we were out and about  Sandi asked me what my one favorite thing about being a mom was - and there are so many things I could list out it seems impossible to narrow down to just one. I am sure I'm not the only mom in the world to think that my kid is the best kid in the world but, I also know I'm the only one who is actually right - except for maybe my own mom! ha! :) But, it is true. Jorja is simply wonderful. However, if I have to narrow down to just one thing - my favorite thing about being a mom (thus far) would have to be, hands down, breast feeding! Everyone else in the world can experience all the wonderful and amazing things about Jorja but NO ONE else but ME gets to have the joy and pleasure of being so close to her in this way. It is indescribable. Now, I know there are many moms out there reading this who would not say this is their favorite thing but I was VERY fortunate when it came to nursing. From the very first time Jorja latched on it was true love. It never hurt. It was never uncomfortable. It was just so natural and wonderful for both of us. I am really dreading the day I will have to begin to wean her - luckily I still have about 2 1/2 more months before I have to think about it. (sigh). I love the feeling of our skin touching. I love the way she clings on so tight while she nurses. I love how sweet her face looks while she moves in so close. I love how close to her I feel while doing it - not just physically but emotionally. I love to sing to her while I hold her so close and I love how sometimes that is the only thing that gets her to really calm down. I love how, for at least the first six months, I was the only thing keeping her alive and growing strong. I love the way she looks at me and smiles when she is finished - fully satisfied and so thankful for her momma. I love the bond we have with each other because of it. I love our bedtime feeding with the lights off and the praise and worship playing lightly in the background and watching her start to doze off to sleep while clinging so close - this is my favorite time of day. I love how perfect her little body fits into mine - as if we were made for each other to do this very thing. I am truly amazed by God's perfect design for moms to be able to care for their children in such a way. I don't know how my body is producing milk and I am truly baffled at God's brilliance but what a blessing to have such a special bond with Jorja that NO ONE else in the world will ever have with her but me! Thank you, Jesus for this indescribable gift of motherhood...I don't think I'm worthy enough to carry the title of "Mom". 

At the Portrait Studio - taken with our camera though...
Jorja and I playing around while we wait for our turn to take pics. 

Our Family Portrait
My wonderful (and a bit crazy) family!! We did take "normal" pictures but I think this truly sums up what my family is really like. I am blessed! 
Me & Jorja on Mother's Day - I believe her shirt says it all! :) 
I love hugs from my sweet girl. 
I can't forget my first child. Sweet Fezzik. 
Me and my babies! I am the luckiest girl in the world. 
(and I hope my blog wasn't TMI for some of you... or too long. I get a little long winded at times... but, hey, isn't that what blogs are for?) :) 

4 comments:

Beth said...

I am so glad to hear that nursing went well for you. Not to much info at all. I had a brief moment of nursing both of my girls, but the pain got the best of me and the lack of latching brought me to a place of worrying that my children might just starve! It was worth a try both times! There is something very special about that bond and I appreciate you sharing your feelings about it...Happy Mother's Day a little late!

brooke rains said...

bexter! omy goodness, im so excited for you having a mother's day!! you're so beautiful and wonderful!!! Thank you for all of your loving words and encouragement!!! And you look SO GOOD. im so anxious to see you, shane, and baby jorja!!! I KNOW how grateful for you I AM and how much i love you, so i cant imagine how much Jorja loves you!!! You're an EXCELLENT mother. NEVER FORGET THAT!

-brooke

Gigi said...

What a wonderful Mother's Day all the way around. Your comments about mothers and motherhood brought me to tears. You have so much love to give...and you know you are loved by so many. Jorja is a very blessed child.

Leah said...

she is so cute! i can't wait to kiss those little cheeks.